While listening to the radio today I heard Tony Evans say, “Acorns always produces oak trees and apple seeds always produces apple trees. Seeds will become what they were created for. The seed is not the problem… it’s the soil… the seed is lying in. (My heart heard this clearly- the seed is NOT the problem)- The seed is God’s Word, it’s always going to produce life! The problem is where the seed is lying?”
My mind began to realize….The seed is not the problem….“it’s my soul…the damage is inside my soul.” This simple truth was strong while bringing a ray of hope and answer to my heart.
Understanding- Each of us are like gardens and within each garden lie different types of soils. Our souls have received good and bad experiences – truth and lies. Even Words spoken Over Us brought life or death went into our soul. From these life experiences many souls/soils have received boulders and vines that block and choke their land.
So what happens to these souls in difficult times? Are they able to stand strong? Do we believe God is with us in and through the trials? Well, for me the minute a storm hit – the winds flipped me over like a sailboat without any weight in its ballast – I couldn’t stay right side up as hard as I tried. After many years of becoming storm weary – I began questioning my faith. My thoughts spoke loudly “THIS ISN’T WORKING ! this isn’t working – GOD !
I began questioning God. Landslides of disbeliefs flooded my soul no matter how hard I tried, how hard I prayed, read my bible or went to church. Evidence of my inner being showed up when the storms of life hit….. I JUST COULDN’T STAY ABOVE WATER.
Now I know- it wasn’t God Word or His Seed that failed…the problem was lying deep inside of me.…deep inside my soul. My lack of belief and trust was no surprise to God. He knew what I lived through. He knew there would come a day where my faith was challenged and my soul would need to be turned upside down in order to find right side up.
He was waiting for this day to come and I would see that God was with me through it all. He was there when I was abused. He was there while I was scared. He was there when I could not swim and thought “THIS IS MY LAST BREATH”. He was there when I didn’t feel it – HE WAS THERE !!! and the enemy has worked over time lying and falsely accusing God. One day God will destroyed the enemy of our soul. Until that time may we take every thought captive and make it bow to a good Fathers heart.
May we come to experience Gods abounding love– 1 Corinthians 13, 1 John 4:10
Finding us resting in His arms , Matthew 11:28
03-19-2016