Category: Garden

While listening to the radio today I heard Tony Evans say, “Acorns always produces oak trees and apple seeds always produces apple trees.  Seeds will become what they were created for.  The seed is not the problem… it’s the soil… the seed is lying in. (My heart heard this clearly- the seed is NOT the problem)- The seed is God’s Word, it’s always going to produce life! The problem is where the seed is lying?”  

My mind began to realize….The seed is not the problem….“it’s my soul…the damage is inside my soul.”  This simple truth was strong while bringing a ray of hope and answer to my heart.

Understanding- Each of us are like gardens and within each garden lie different types of soils. Our souls have received good and bad experiences – truth and lies. Even Words spoken Over Us brought life or death went into our soul. From these life experiences many souls/soils have received boulders and vines that block and choke their land.

So what happens to these souls in difficult times? Are they able to stand strong? Do we believe God is with us in and through the trials? Well, for me the minute a storm hit – the winds flipped me over like a sailboat without any weight in its ballast – I couldn’t stay right side up as hard as I tried.  After many years of becoming storm weary – I began questioning my faith. My thoughts spoke loudly “THIS ISN’T WORKING ! this isn’t working – GOD !

I began questioning God.  Landslides of disbeliefs flooded my soul no matter how hard I tried, how hard I prayed, read my bible or went to church. Evidence of my inner being showed up when the storms of life hit….. I JUST COULDN’T STAY ABOVE WATER.

Now I know- it wasn’t God Word or His Seed that failed…the problem was lying deep inside of me.…deep inside my soul. My lack of belief and trust was no surprise to God.  He knew what I lived through.  He knew there would come a day where my faith was challenged and my soul would need to be turned upside down in order to find right side up.  

He was waiting for this day to come and I would see that God was with me through it all.  He was there when I was abused.  He was there while I was scared.  He was there when I could not swim and thought “THIS IS MY LAST BREATH”. He was there when I didn’t feel it – HE WAS THERE !!! and the enemy has worked over time lying and falsely accusing God. One day God will destroyed the enemy of our soul.  Until that time may we take every thought captive and make it bow to a good Fathers heart.

May we come to experience Gods abounding love– 1 Corinthians 13, 1 John 4:10

Finding us resting in His arms , Matthew 11:28

03-19-2016

Disappointed after a plant had died realizing I had watered it to much. “Why did I water this plant so much?” Asking the Lord.

Immediately this came to my mind….Plants need time without water…dryness is good. 

I knew Personally this meant….stop watering so much- slow down texting or calling those I Loved so much- Let them go to grow. Plants need time without water – so do people.

Why? would I keep Watering a plant over and over again-

Why? was I constantly calling or texting ???? deep deep inside something kept pressing me- fear, SCARED OF LOOSING PEOPLE IN MY LIFE- although it looks on the surface its about people. Ultimately came down to not trusting God. Unknowingly we don’t realize any form of abuse , trauma or failures from others are PLACED ON GOD and His character is falsified -falsely accused- and our soul shifts everything in our hearts from the smallest of choices to the largest.

To be honest- over waterING THIS PLANT…… was just the tip of the ice burg….. SO connected to EVERYTHING !

MY JOURNEY IS AND WILL BE….learning to TRUST MY FATHER’S GOOD HEART….It takes time exposing lies and Removing boulders – cutting through vines choking out the Fathers love. REPLANTING HIS GOOD HEART in the soul of my heart…..SLOWLY Experiencing His love As Truth/Light is brought into the shattered places-

Jeremiah 31;3 “I have loved you with an everlasting love…. “

As I was walking in the garden today, I noticed a bumble bee making his way inside a large pink flower. When he came out he was covered in golden pollen. As he flew away, I watched him land and touch many places in the garden.

As he carried this golden powder it pollened the plants and trees creating the ability for more life and fruit upon the earth!

Remembered when my teacher shared with the church/congregation…..

“You are to Go ! and share Jesus with the world”. Matthew 28:19

Fear gripped my heart. Then he shared,” if you feel frightened or scare, asked the Lord to give you courage and boldness” He then asked us to say a prayer….. ” Lord, give me courage and boldness to go and share Jesus.” I prayed the prayer- even though terrified at the thought of speaking to total strangers.

Then my mind quickly thought …… ” Lord, how will I do this…..What if the adult ask me questions about scripture? I only have one verse- John 3:16 and one song “Jesus Loves Me”. What if they ask me about things I don’t have answers for?’ No answer ….God was waiting for me surrender my fear and step into the unknown.

Remember……He knows each one of us perfectly and is a good Father giving exactly what we can handle- So the first person was a child her name was Crystal (a child how sweet of the Lord – I was most comfortable with children). And so as this little girl stood in front of me at church one Wednesday night as a small still voice said to me….” tell her about me” I replied, ” Lord, she’s here she already knows You.” This small voice said, “What if she doesn’t?’ “O, then I should share- if she doesn’t” I thought ….. the journey began as I shared the Love of Jesus to Crystal. And to my surprise this was her first time getting on the bus and coming to G.A.’s. ( Girls in Action). And it was my first time teaching.

As that night ended and new days began I still fought fears and uncomfortablness sharing with strangers while- He brought people beside me to help…He truly went before me. The more I obeyed the less scary it became until it seem so natural to go and give His golden message to the world.

Realizing now, all He was asking for was a willing heart to start.

Matthew 28: 18 then Jesus came to them and said “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always to the very end of the age.”

Insights began 07-25-2004 completed writing 05-23-2022